Getting into the Solution

So, yesterday was not a very good day for me; I was all wrapped up in myself and self-pity was running riot.  I was feeling as though I had let everyone down and that my dreams were never going to come true; that I was nothing but a failure and I might as well give up.  Yes I went there and for most of the day at that.  It seemed like the harder I tried, the worse things got.  Overwhelming feelings took over like a sudden disaster and seemed to be suffocating me.

I knew that if I allowed these feelings to continue that I was headed for some dangerous territory; so I did what I know to do and I went to my Sponser’s house and shared my feelings and thoughts, in a vulnerable way.  There was nothing positive coming out of my mouth, especially about myself.  She pointed out to me that all I was doing was beating myself up and the only place that was going to get me was into a deep and dark depression.  We talked for a long time and it really felt better getting out what was honestly going on with me , both in my head and in my heart.

Sometimes we just have bad days; We feel “bluh”and just want to escape from it all; especially when everything seems to be falling apart around us.  If we don’t quickly get into the solution, we will lead ourselves’ to much darker places; depression, despair, isolation, fear, loneliness & even destruction.

When you have those days, don’t  beat yourself up; we all go through such times.  Reach out to someone, share what’s going on and be open-minded and willing enough to take some suggestions; and when things seem to be falling apart, don’t allow it to cause you to give up; Just because things aren’t working out on your time-table , doesn’t mean they never will.

((((hugs & love))))

Wendy

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Self-Esteem

There are so many times I wondered why I was even here on this earth.  I couldn’t seem to find what it was that I truly wanted to do, and to be quite frank, I didn’t care, because I just knew I would never be good at whatever it was.  

When I decided to get clean in January of 2007, my life began taking a new direction; one that was filled with Happiness, Freedom, & Hope, but I still couldn’t find my purpose.  Why was I here?  What was it I was suppose to do?  The answers just wouldn’t come.  Soon I became extremely depressed and would often tell myself, “I didn’t get clean , to be miserable.”  Everyone else was doing something great and they were great at it, but I couldn’t see myself being great at anything.  Needless to say I had a lot of work to do.  

Low self-esteem was my biggest issue and even today I still battle with not feeling good enough.  The difference is it doesn’t last as long, nor happen as often.  I started trying new things and began keeping a daily journal, which I call My Letters To God.  Soon I realized that I loved to write; I loved to help people and I loved to share what worked for me.  I wanted others to know that no matter what they may have gone through in life; Addiction, Child abuse (of all sorts), Torture, Depression, Suicidal Thoughts, etc., they too could find a way to enjoy life once again.   So I started working on a meditation book and soon began my own facebook page which has grown to over 1 million followers.  Soon I was dreaming even bigger dreams.  Inspirational Jewelry has always been very special to me; when I am feeling down or like I just don’t have the courage to go one step more, I will rub on my Serenity Prayer necklace and recite the prayer over and over; so I wanted to have my own line of jewelry.  Now this was something I never thought would happen, but in the past few months , not only do I have my own line of jewelry , I have my first t-shirt and even keytags.  Now how awesome is that.  With the help of my Brother-n-law and Sister my dreams are happening right before my own eyes.

Now with all of that being said, I have found myself experiencing a lot of doubt and frustration the past several weeks; My website is new, so there isn’t much traffic and therefore the jewelry and shirts aren’t selling like I had hoped.   Fear started taking over again and before I knew it my thoughts were full of negativity.  I was doubting my existence once again; I was feeling like a failure and like I was letting those that were helping make this dream possible, down.  I also haven’t put my book on kindle yet because of the fear of rejection.  

I look at what all is going on in my life and wonder why I can’t be as great as others are; then I realize I am great, because God made me.  He made me for a unique and divine purpose and helping others and inspiring others is the purpose He has for me; whether it be through facebook, jewelry, website, twitter, other social media or WordPress; God has a plan for me and I know that it’s for my best.  I also know things take time and a lot of work; My self-esteem is much better but I still have a long way to go.  It’s called a PROCESS. 

Low Self-Esteem can destroy your life; it can cause you to do the things you truly don’t want to do, to give up on your dreams , your hopes, and even worse your life.  So many have taken their own lives just because of how much they hated themselves’.   Don’t be one of those people.

When life gets tough, when you feel as though you have no purpose , no use at all in this Universe; Remember, without you the Universe would not be the same; the puzzle wouldn’t be complete, because you are meant to be in it, JUST THE WAY YOU ARE!!  And when you have a dream that you can’t go a day without thinking about, NEVER GIVE UP ON IT!!!!  NEVER!!!!  It takes time to make things happen, along with a lot of hard work and patience.  You will get there, one step & one day at a time. 

Always have Faith in yourself, because God has more faith in you than you can possibly imagine and with God on our side, we can’t do anything but Succeed!!!

(((hugs & love)))

Wendy

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Inspirational Jewelry

I am so grateful for how my life is today;

I would have never dreamed 7 years ago that I would have a facebook page that had over 1 million followers, my own line of jewelry, and books coming out in the near future.  So gratitude does not even express how I am feeling at this moment.

I am doing what I love to do and all because I chose to take a few steps in the direction of my dreams.

Please check out all of our jewelry and let me know what you think at  http://wingsofencouragement.net/store.html

Always remember that you deserve the best that life and love have to offer;

You deserve for your dreams to come true and you are worth all the effort it takes to make that happen.

(((hugs & love)))

Wendy

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Somewhere along our journey we may have been told that we were worthless, less than, would never amount to anything; that we were a mistake,,,etc.  These may be extremes but true for so many of us.  Whether it was from childhood or later on in our adult life, we no longer have to believe those words; There is just no truth in them .   Those days are long gone.  Today is a new beginning,,,one we can face the painful feelings and free them; no longer allowing them to control our entire being.

No matter whether you feel it or not, you are unique; you are priceless and have a purpose that only you can fill.  It may not feel that way at the moment, but with time, practice, and effort you will soon believe it.

Never forget that you deserve the best that life and love have to offer; You deserve to be happy in life.  Why not start today?

(((hugs & love)))0

Wendy

Old beliefs,thoughts, & ideas

Today I was required to attend our Family Program at work; (a 3 day ordeal) as part of our yearly training. While I not only taught the Family Program for my previous employer; I created that very program; It was still required of me to attend this facility’s proceedings.
As a direct result of the class itself; I began feeling “less than”, “a part from”, “isolated”, “dumb”, ignorant, useless and plain stupid; even a state of complete hopelessness came over me.
Yes those are all very powerful feelings and I experienced each one of them, off and on, throughout my day; all because I was learning something different. You see my addicted brain was telling me that I didn’t need to go to these classes, yet in just one day I have learned so much.
I have dealt with those feelings and let them go, one by one; but I know that I am so much better today than I was almost 6 years ago. I also know that this is a life long process; one of which some require a more rigorous program than others. It does set me apart from most everyone, yet I keep going, because I do know that each and every day I am getting closer and closer to being free from the compulsion to think such powerful thoughts of negativity.
So I do my best to replace them with the positive and keep taking deep breaths, taking one step at a time; knowing that I am getting to where I want to be.
Wendy Box

 

Give yourself a break.

 

Over the past several months I have noticed myself experiencing some old thoughts, beliefs, and behaviors.  Of course I let it go on for way too long, but the past few days, I’ve been taking some time to do some self-reflection.  While I may not have pin pointed the exact nature at the core of my inner self; I have become aware of how quickly low self-esteem, codependency, insecurity, fear, loneliness, isolation, and the loss of purpose and hope, can take over my life when I am not practicing my personal program of self-care.

With that being said, I have made a commitment with myself, to attend regular meetings (for my Recovery), call my Sponsor more often, give back to others, and meditate more deeply; long with making sure I am practicing daily affirmations.

When you seem to be snapping at everyone around you, when you can’t find the motivation to do anything, talk to anyone, or just to get out of bed; when you feel as though all hope is lost; SLOW DOWN for a while; take some time for yourself to reflect on when the feelings began.  Most importantly make sure you are not neglecting time with YOU and your loved ones; Make sure you are taking time out to have some fun, Make sure you are practicing what it is that set you on the right path to begin with.  Then slowly start incorporating the positive steps back into your life and give yourself a break.  We all have moments of uncertainty and confusion; we all at one time or another doubt our mere existence; It’s the AWARENESS that brings us back into the right direction; for without awareness, there’s no recognition of a problem in the first place.

 

 

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“Life is meant to be lived, not endured;
So embrace life and live it to its’ fullest;
Push through the difficult times when you must;
But choose to enjoy your time on this earth;
Choose to live it with all of your heart;
…Stop depriving yourself;
There’s beauty surrounding you;
Now grab hold of it;
And have the time of your life!! ” wb