Keeping our word is of the utmost importance; Doing what we say we are going to do, defines our true character and whether or not others will trust us.
When I first got clean/sober, no one expected me to do what I said I was going to do. I had been deceiving so many during my active addiction, that no one trusted me anymore. It took some hard work and a lot of practice, but today I can say, unless there are circumstances beyond my control, I do what I say I am going to do.
Have you ever started a project only to leave it undone? For instance, something as simple as washing clothes or doing dishes? I always had to leave something undone, whether it was a few utensils in the sink or clothes left in the dryer. When I realized that if I couldn’t keep a commitment to the small things, I would never be able to tackle the bigger things in life; I began to change. No, I am not always perfect at this and there are times when either I am sick or something , like an emergency or unexpected visitor comes up; that I am unable to complete what I set out to do. However today, people know that if I don’t follow through with something, it’s because of something completely out of my control.
Recently I have had to re-group in this area of my life. When I had to quit my job because of circumstances at home I began to isolate; Then my Facebook page was hacked, then the sales didn’t go like we thought they would, then I became ill and ended up in the hospital for the 3rd time in a year and several other things seemed to be falling apart; That’s when I began feeling sorry for myself and with that self-loathing and self-pity not only did isolation take over, but every time I made plans with someone, I would make up some excuse as to why I couldn’t go through with what I had said I would do.
In Recovery we have Sponsors and although my Sponsor is also my best friend, she doesn’t hesitate to call me out on things. This was no different; She told me that I was slipping and setting up for a relapse; She was concerned for my well-being and saw that I not only had halted the healing process , but I had gone backwards in leaps and bounds. At first I was in shock and felt completely helpless, but then I began to pray and take responsibility for my actions; followed by making right those wrongs, to the best of my ability. I am so happy to say that today I am back on track; back writing, back doing what I love to do on Facebook and helping others; Back selling the jewelry and other inspirational items at my online store and at the 2 on-site stores in Alabama. No, I am not giving up and Yes I am keeping my word! I am following through with what I began and I plan on seeing it through to the end
We all fall, we all get off track; None of us are perfect, but we can start over at any given time and learn from our mistakes; Besides that’s what success is all about, growing and learning from the setbacks.
((((hugs & love))))